I made a big mistake and I'm paying for
it. The Bible
asks the question, "Can two walk together, except they be in
agreement?" (Amos 3:3).
How true! God's Word is filled
with good advice. If only we would heed it!
A little more than two years ago I was
befriended by an
attorney who wanted to involve me in a youth mentoring program.
Everything he said sounded so good, but he was not a Christian.
And even though God's Word says not to yoke up and enter into
any kind of partnership with such a person, I tried to reason
it out. I teamed up with this man. My motives were good. I
wanted to do the right thing. But because I did not
Bible's instructions in this matter, I went off course. After
two years, I realized my error.
I was devastated when the attorney made
off with hundreds
of my belongings to include childhood and Bar Mitzvah photos,
photos of my parents, hundreds of letters, my college
transcripts, personal and legal documents, and much more.
It was in November of last year when I
this man's true motives: to use me, and to cash in on our
And I did indeed learn a powerful lesson
by getting burned. I pray, too, that I will never make this
Nevertheless, the Lord chastened me through
He did not let me off the hook. For God is no respecter of
persons. He had to discipline me, and there were times
felt His displeasure because of my poor choices.
I have been going through a grieving process
But I am also on the road to recovery. At one point, however,
I was thinking of stepping down from my position as pastor of
this prison congregation because I had become uncertain of my
ability to truly hear from the Lord.
I do not want to dare stand behind a pulpit
to preach to
men if I cannot discern what God is speaking at any given
moment. To many souls could get hurt by a minister who speaks
from his flesh, and not from the Spirit.
God, though, strengthened and encouraged
my heart through
this experience. I am still grieving. I suffered personal
loss. And I suppose my ego has also been hurt.
After all, it is painful and embarrassing
to realize that
one has been duped and deceived. That somehow a con man
penetrated my defenses and played me for a fool. Yet the Lord
has been a patient teacher. I'm wiser now, and much more
cautious. I will forever be more discerning. I will continue
to be forgiving, too.
January 20, 2005