I don't share
everything that I am doing with my life or
everything that happens to me in this journal.
And there is
much I have chosen to keep quiet about, such as certain
situations that are difficult to discuss or problems that even
if I wanted to I could not put them into words.
Now is such
a time. It is yet another time of betrayal
and a "personal crisis" that I cannot go into detail about.
But the pain is real, and my spirit is troubled.
I have been through these things before. And
there are no doubt many trials and tribulations still ahead for
me that, while I am not worried about any of them, will all
have to be confronted in their due season,
however, that has stuck tight against me
throughout the years, is my notoriety.
People sometimes try to
get close to me in order to seek monetary gain, or for some
other kind of personal profit.
I have often told my friends that if Jesus Christ was
being crucified in our day, and if he were on the cross at
Golgotha at this very moment, I believe that
within less than
twenty-four hours later his blood drenched garmets, the crown
of thorns, the bent nails with bone slivers embedded in them,
and even pieces of wood from that rugged cross, would all be
for sale on Ebay.
This is an exceedingly corrupt and greedy world where
the love of money is still the "root of all evil" (1 Timothy
in light of a personal problem that I must deal
with, I'm retreating to my prayer closet.
It's time for me to
seek a word from the Lord, and to place my needs and requests
into His hands.
I am going
to the "Throne of Grace" so that I may find the
help and mercy that I need.
And with this,
I am closing my November journal a little
I hope to
be alone with my heavenly Father until I recieve
instructions as to how to handle the situation. Thank you,
everyone, for your prayers.
November 27, 2004
(c) 2004 David Berkowitz