Thorns

I don't share everything that I am doing with my life or

everything that happens to me in this journal. And there is

much I have chosen to keep quiet about, such as certain

situations that are difficult to discuss or problems that even

if I wanted to I could not put them into words.

Now is such a time. It is yet another time of betrayal

and a "personal crisis" that I cannot go into detail about.

But the pain is real, and my spirit is troubled.

Of course I have been through these things before. And

there are no doubt many trials and tribulations still ahead for

me that, while I am not worried about any of them, will all

have to be confronted in their due season,

One thorn, however, that has stuck tight against me

throughout the years, is my notoriety. People sometimes try to

get close to me in order to seek monetary gain, or for some

other kind of personal profit.

I have often told my friends that if Jesus Christ was

being crucified in our day, and if he were on the cross at

Golgotha at this very moment, I believe that within less than

twenty-four hours later his blood drenched garmets, the crown

of thorns, the bent nails with bone slivers embedded in them,

and even pieces of wood from that rugged cross, would all be

for sale on Ebay.

This is an exceedingly corrupt and greedy world where

the love of money is still the "root of all evil" (1 Timothy

6:10a).

Therefore, in light of a personal problem that I must deal

with, I'm retreating to my prayer closet. It's time for me to

seek a word from the Lord, and to place my needs and requests

into His hands.

I am going to the "Throne of Grace" so that I may find the

help and mercy that I need.

And with this, I am closing my November journal a little

early.

I hope to be alone with my heavenly Father until I recieve

instructions as to how to handle the situation. Thank you,

everyone, for your prayers.

David Berkowitz

November 27, 2004